into little thoughtfulness..

there are times when few words from some people can bring many changes in you,especially when you are close to them.I've realised i now.it's been a long time since i spent time to think.think without haste-about many things,the people around me,their character,how influential words are,how different people interpret my actions,last but not least-about "ME".

it was unusual i didn't get sleep for quite a long time due to my haunting thoughts.am i misunderstanding others or are they? am i wrong or are they?in an unbiased mood,i realised few things.yes!it's time to change,not for others' sake but for my own good.as my friend says-"don't expect anything in life.expectations hurt.when u don't expect anything,every moment is a surprise and every surprise brings happiness"how true! who am i to expect things from others-mainly close ones?is everyone jobless enough to fulfill my expectations?is it a give and take policy?i don't know.sometimes it hurts,it pains.I'm able to understand their point of view clearly.still it hurts..it pains...to think i have been wrong!don't know how far people may perceive the changes in me.

i am happy being just me-but that's not enough.i just can't trespass others' space.it takes time.and time heals everything.if the subtle changes i am undergoing are going to make me calmer,think better and lessen my sleepless nights-i don't mind them!is this a result of a profound thought?yes,may be.have i become matured?i don't know.this whole thing may sound absurd to you.hurt,calm,depressed,happy,upset,emotional,composed,disturbed,silent,confused,clear-all at the same time...
am in a cluster of thoughts!

SUJATHA- a homage

rengarajan,better known as writer "sujatha"passed away recently.an electronics engineer(he developed the EVM!) turned into a writer of diverse issues,is one of my favourite.the best of his works i like are GANESH-VASANTH stories,his SRIRANGATHU DHEVADHAIGAL,dialogues for many movies especially KANNATHIL MUTHAMITTAL and his weekly blog KATRADHUM PETRADHUM in ANANDHA VIKATAN.

he could practically write about anything under the sky-be it a sci-fic or a movie review,short stories,poetry,thriller fictions,question-answer sections,thiruppaavai,world politics,environmental concerns,anything and everything!his portrayal of even the smallest character is deep.his sarcasms are too intellectual!the way he handles each story is simply superb!personally,i like his "vasanth" character in his series.no one can describe such a jovial,naughty,cute,intelligent,sweet,flirt-no.1-character better!sujatha put forth the funny theory,"all iyengars are related"!

he died out of some prolonged illness.a prolific writer is not in our midst now.let's pray for his soul to rest in peace!