there are times when few words from some people can bring many changes in you,especially when you are close to them.I've realised i now.it's been a long time since i spent time to think.think without haste-about many things,the people around me,their character,how influential words are,how different people interpret my actions,last but not least-about "ME".
it was unusual i didn't get sleep for quite a long time due to my haunting thoughts.am i misunderstanding others or are they? am i wrong or are they?in an unbiased mood,i realised few things.yes!it's time to change,not for others' sake but for my own good.as my friend says-"don't expect anything in life.expectations hurt.when u don't expect anything,every moment is a surprise and every surprise brings happiness"how true! who am i to expect things from others-mainly close ones?is everyone jobless enough to fulfill my expectations?is it a give and take policy?i don't know.sometimes it hurts,it pains.I'm able to understand their point of view clearly.still it hurts..it pains...to think i have been wrong!don't know how far people may perceive the changes in me.
i am happy being just me-but that's not enough.i just can't trespass others' space.it takes time.and time heals everything.if the subtle changes i am undergoing are going to make me calmer,think better and lessen my sleepless nights-i don't mind them!is this a result of a profound thought?yes,may be.have i become matured?i don't know.this whole thing may sound absurd to you.hurt,calm,depressed,happy,upset,emotional,composed,disturbed,silent,confused,clear-all at the same time...
am in a cluster of thoughts!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
SUJATHA- a homage
rengarajan,better known as writer "sujatha"passed away recently.an electronics engineer(he developed the EVM!) turned into a writer of diverse issues,is one of my favourite.the best of his works i like are GANESH-VASANTH stories,his SRIRANGATHU DHEVADHAIGAL,dialogues for many movies especially KANNATHIL MUTHAMITTAL and his weekly blog KATRADHUM PETRADHUM in ANANDHA VIKATAN.
he could practically write about anything under the sky-be it a sci-fic or a movie review,short stories,poetry,thriller fictions,question-answer sections,thiruppaavai,world politics,environmental concerns,anything and everything!his portrayal of even the smallest character is deep.his sarcasms are too intellectual!the way he handles each story is simply superb!personally,i like his "vasanth" character in his series.no one can describe such a jovial,naughty,cute,intelligent,sweet,flirt-no.1-character better!sujatha put forth the funny theory,"all iyengars are related"!
he died out of some prolonged illness.a prolific writer is not in our midst now.let's pray for his soul to rest in peace!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
The divine mother
u wouldn't have made even the wildest guess that i am gonna write about "HER"-the divine lady.even now,no prizes for guessing who she is.this piece is about YASHODHA- whom i call the divine mother.
YASHODHA!!-does AAYARPAADI,GOKULAM,NANDAKOPAN,GOPIKAS,VENNAI come to your mind on hearing her name?then u r right--it's SHE- the lucky lady who had the blessing of bringing up LORD KRISHNA.she didn't give birth to HIM~yet she made the most beautiful part of Krishna's life-his childhood.i am one among those who fascinate "KUTTI" Krishna and his pranks- "LEELAIS".she is a lovely soul-more so,a blessed soul.highly gifted!who else will ever get a chance to be so close to the divine lord?how marvellous her motherhood would have been?she felt her child was special to her--not knowing that she was so special to HIM that he made her his mom:) who else can beat him,scold him,tie him up with the "ural" when he stole butter from other homes?
கண்ணனை- உரலில் கட்டி,வாய்ப் பொத்தி கெஞ்ச வைத்தாள்!
can any one dream of even doing that to krishna?she took pleasure in watching him growing up-the mother of a naughty kid.there was no limit to his naughtiness!!a perfect தீராத விளையாட்டுப் பிள்ளை....he was the child of not only yashodha--but the whole of gokulam:)she got mesmerised in his music-those melodies that came from his flute,played with those tender lips,soft and subtle!she was awestruck when he showed her the whole world inside his mouth.she took pride in being his mother when others praised him for his deeds.she showed her false anger when she received complaints.ah! as if Krishna never knew all that!!he knew--he wanted to play pranks and make her life enjoyable-she deserved that:)
she could not control herself when demons came to attack her baby,after all,she loved him so much that she could never part with him and never be away from him.
she fed him,bathed him,played with him,sang lullaby to make him sleep,and did everything to her little Krishna,not knowing that he rules the world!!
she was undoubtedly lucky to have the lord as her son! she was bestowed with a beautiful treasure-a lovely motherhood!!for even the angels and devas envied her,seeing her attachment to sweet little Krishna! i call her-the divine mother!
what else can we ask her other than~~~என்ன தவம் செய்தனை ?!!
YASHODHA!!-does AAYARPAADI,GOKULAM,NANDAKOPAN,GOPIKAS,VENNAI come to your mind on hearing her name?then u r right--it's SHE- the lucky lady who had the blessing of bringing up LORD KRISHNA.she didn't give birth to HIM~yet she made the most beautiful part of Krishna's life-his childhood.i am one among those who fascinate "KUTTI" Krishna and his pranks- "LEELAIS".she is a lovely soul-more so,a blessed soul.highly gifted!who else will ever get a chance to be so close to the divine lord?how marvellous her motherhood would have been?she felt her child was special to her--not knowing that she was so special to HIM that he made her his mom:) who else can beat him,scold him,tie him up with the "ural" when he stole butter from other homes?
கண்ணனை- உரலில் கட்டி,வாய்ப் பொத்தி கெஞ்ச வைத்தாள்!
can any one dream of even doing that to krishna?she took pleasure in watching him growing up-the mother of a naughty kid.there was no limit to his naughtiness!!a perfect தீராத விளையாட்டுப் பிள்ளை....he was the child of not only yashodha--but the whole of gokulam:)she got mesmerised in his music-those melodies that came from his flute,played with those tender lips,soft and subtle!she was awestruck when he showed her the whole world inside his mouth.she took pride in being his mother when others praised him for his deeds.she showed her false anger when she received complaints.ah! as if Krishna never knew all that!!he knew--he wanted to play pranks and make her life enjoyable-she deserved that:)
she could not control herself when demons came to attack her baby,after all,she loved him so much that she could never part with him and never be away from him.
she fed him,bathed him,played with him,sang lullaby to make him sleep,and did everything to her little Krishna,not knowing that he rules the world!!
she was undoubtedly lucky to have the lord as her son! she was bestowed with a beautiful treasure-a lovely motherhood!!for even the angels and devas envied her,seeing her attachment to sweet little Krishna! i call her-the divine mother!
what else can we ask her other than~~~என்ன தவம் செய்தனை ?!!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
யாதுமாகி நின்றாய்!
கண்ட நாள் முதல்
கண்களில் குடி்புகுந்தாய்
கருவிழிகளில் கலந்திட்டாய்!
என்னில் உன்னைப்பார்க்கவோ?
உன்னில் என்னைப்பார்க்கவோ?
முதற்பார்வையில்-
முன்னிரவுத்தூக்கம் பறித்தாய்!
புன்சிரிப்பினில்-
பின்னிரவுத்தூக்கம் கெடுத்தாய்!
எனக்குள் நானே சிரிக்க வைத்தாய்!
உன்னில் என்னைத்தொலைக்க வைத்தாய்!
என்னை எனக்குள் தேட வைத்தாய்!
உன்னை என்னுள் ஒளித்து வைத்தாய்!
கண்ணில் தேடல் தொடங்கியதும்
கனவும் அதன் வழி சென்றிடுதே!
கனவைக்கருவாய் நினைத்து வந்தேன்
கருவிலும் கலந்து என் கனவானாய்!
தொட்டால் சிணுங்கும் குணம்-அதையும்
உன் தீண்டல் சாம்பல் ஆக்கிடுதே!
தீண்டாவிடினும் தீண்டியதாய்
தறி கெட்ட நெஞ்சம் நினைத்திடுதே!
உயிர் கூறும் வார்த்தைகள் கேட்கிறேன்
உனையே உயிராய் நினைக்கிறேன்
உயிர் வரை உள் நோக்கித் தேடுகிறேன்
உனையன்றி எதுவும் தெரியவில்லை!
சிரிப்பால் சிந்தையால் சிறகு தந்தாய்-உன்
சொல்லால் செயலால் சிறை பிடித்தாய்
மீள வழியுண்டாம் மனச் சிறையினின்று
மீளவும் மனம் தான் இடம் தருமோ?
கண்ணும் கண்ணும் நோக்குகையில்
வாய்ச்சொல்லில் என்ன பயன்?
கண்ணும் கண்ணும் கலந்த பின்னே
காத்திருந்து என்ன பலன்?
கனவாய் நினைவாய்
கண்ணாய் மணியாய்
உடலாய் உயிராய்
மனமாய் மொழியாய்
இரவாய்ப் பகலாய்
இமையாய் விழியாய்
சரியாய்த் தவறாய்
வழியாய் வாழ்வாய்
---யாதுமாகி நின்றாய்!
கண்களில் குடி்புகுந்தாய்
கருவிழிகளில் கலந்திட்டாய்!
என்னில் உன்னைப்பார்க்கவோ?
உன்னில் என்னைப்பார்க்கவோ?
முதற்பார்வையில்-
முன்னிரவுத்தூக்கம் பறித்தாய்!
புன்சிரிப்பினில்-
பின்னிரவுத்தூக்கம் கெடுத்தாய்!
எனக்குள் நானே சிரிக்க வைத்தாய்!
உன்னில் என்னைத்தொலைக்க வைத்தாய்!
என்னை எனக்குள் தேட வைத்தாய்!
உன்னை என்னுள் ஒளித்து வைத்தாய்!
கண்ணில் தேடல் தொடங்கியதும்
கனவும் அதன் வழி சென்றிடுதே!
கனவைக்கருவாய் நினைத்து வந்தேன்
கருவிலும் கலந்து என் கனவானாய்!
தொட்டால் சிணுங்கும் குணம்-அதையும்
உன் தீண்டல் சாம்பல் ஆக்கிடுதே!
தீண்டாவிடினும் தீண்டியதாய்
தறி கெட்ட நெஞ்சம் நினைத்திடுதே!
உயிர் கூறும் வார்த்தைகள் கேட்கிறேன்
உனையே உயிராய் நினைக்கிறேன்
உயிர் வரை உள் நோக்கித் தேடுகிறேன்
உனையன்றி எதுவும் தெரியவில்லை!
சிரிப்பால் சிந்தையால் சிறகு தந்தாய்-உன்
சொல்லால் செயலால் சிறை பிடித்தாய்
மீள வழியுண்டாம் மனச் சிறையினின்று
மீளவும் மனம் தான் இடம் தருமோ?
கண்ணும் கண்ணும் நோக்குகையில்
வாய்ச்சொல்லில் என்ன பயன்?
கண்ணும் கண்ணும் கலந்த பின்னே
காத்திருந்து என்ன பலன்?
கனவாய் நினைவாய்
கண்ணாய் மணியாய்
உடலாய் உயிராய்
மனமாய் மொழியாய்
இரவாய்ப் பகலாய்
இமையாய் விழியாய்
சரியாய்த் தவறாய்
வழியாய் வாழ்வாய்
---யாதுமாகி நின்றாய்!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
many happy returns!
heya! it's my birthday! (27th Nov)well i am not that kiddish to be fascinated by birthdays-to dream about it a month long! but still,the little gal inside me feels simply enthralled to receive all those midnight calls from friends...isn't it a lovely feeling to know people are awake to wish u?getting innumerable calls that make ur cell beep "....."waiting every other minute?doing the telephone operator job the whole day?yes!!! it's not party time with an impending circuits exam the next day,even then,this little girl deserves little pleasures like these on turning 19,doesn't she?
gone are the days when everything-starting from a birthday dress to getting assorted chocolates for friends to opening gift wrappers with due care(hey i hate them getting torn,thinking of the care with which they were packed) to cutting cakes to going out with the family for dinner-seemed what a birthday is for! now a simple hug,a warm kiss,the sweetest payasam from mom seems to be heaven!ah! on the verge of teens,sindhuja has become matured...(has she??:):) kudos!
can anyone read minds better-- thanks is a small word to loving grandpa who gifted me an I-POD!
thank u god!for 1 more year of ur blessings!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINDHUJA:)
gone are the days when everything-starting from a birthday dress to getting assorted chocolates for friends to opening gift wrappers with due care(hey i hate them getting torn,thinking of the care with which they were packed) to cutting cakes to going out with the family for dinner-seemed what a birthday is for! now a simple hug,a warm kiss,the sweetest payasam from mom seems to be heaven!ah! on the verge of teens,sindhuja has become matured...(has she??:):) kudos!
can anyone read minds better-- thanks is a small word to loving grandpa who gifted me an I-POD!
thank u god!for 1 more year of ur blessings!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINDHUJA:)
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