it was just that!

it was just a short span of time...1.5 hrs?that sounds short when u r with someone whom u like.it's not always that we get to spend time like this,do we?u start something,i reply.i start a topic,u reply.i ask u to talk,u ask me to.finally? it's time up!! i warned u often that we've very less time left.yes,we smiled.we talked.we walked.we laughed.but,was that enough?

time just flies.what did i expect u to talk?what did i want to tell u?i remember nothing.do u think u told me all that u wanted to?i don't know.but sometimes silence speaks lots.just like the other days i've been with you,i found that today too.the silence that wasn't planned.i tried to break it.....with my own silence?sounds silly?not for me!

all that i ask is--why should it end so short?

முதலாவதாய்!

எங்கோ ஒரு மனதில்
ஏதோ ஒரு ஞாபகத்தில்
என் நினைவு தோன்றும்
முதலாவதாய்....

எங்கோ ஒரு தோழி வீட்டில்
ஏதோ ஒரு மூலையில்
நான் கொடுத்த பரிசு நிற்கும்
முதலாவதாய்...

எங்கோ ஒரு வானில்
ஏதோ ஒரு துளியை
மேகம் என் மேல் சிந்தும்
முதலாவதாய்...

எங்கோ ஒரு கரையில்
ஏதோ ஒரு மண்ணில்
என் பாதச்சுவடை
அலை தொட்டுச் செல்லும்
முதலாவதாய்...

எங்கோ ஒரு நாட்குறிப்பில்
ஏதோ ஒரு கையும்
என் பெயரை எழுதும்
முதலாவதாய்....

Up on the terrace

if there is one place which never tires me,it's my terrace.funny? no!terrace is the best place a house can have.mine is a double terrace-neat,big,bright and calm.come,I'll take you there now!

it's the dawn-6a.m.walk up-hey no shoes allowed!barefooted as i enter the terrace,tip-toeing,the cool breeze blows upon my face.there i see those lovely souls.guess who?the pigeons!yes!10?20?50? no!! 100!the whole terrace becomes theirs.as i slowly walk up,they fly with the loudest sound possible.have you heard the loud wind blowing before a rain?something similar.wishing good morning to the sun,i move forward,watching those birds pecking at the grains thrown by myneighbour.and lo!there they fly again!this is the best way to start the day i tell you!

go up on a rainy day.either when it's cloudy,or after the shower,when the ground has quenched its thirst,offering you the coolest atmosphere.(hey remember!no shoes!)that's the way to heaven!

are u happy?sad?confused?whatever be it,terrace is the best place to share your feeling.do you need to think?introspect?calm down your mind?go to the terrace at night.filled with the white light of the moon,nature will be at its best!to those who think this is an utter waste of time,I'm sorry-you're missing something in life.i would say time not spent with moon,stars,wind,pigeons,and of course-THE TERRACE,is the time you've wasted all the while!

so,when was the last time you went to your terrace?

தேடல்

மண்ணுக்குள்ளே தேடு மணிவைரம் கிடைக்கும்

மனதினுள்ளே தேடு உன் திறமை கிட்டும்

கண்ணுக்குள்ளே தேடு கண்மணி தெரியும்

கனவினுள்ளே தேடு உன் இலக்குப் புரியும்

ஊருக்குள்ளே தேடு உத்தமர் பலர் உளர்

உன்னுள்ளே தேடு உண்மைகள் பல உள

உன் கனவுகளும் இலட்சியங்களும் தகர்க்கப்படும் போது

சிதைவுகளுக்கிடையே தேடு

இடிபாடுகளுக்குள்ளே புதைந்திருக்கும்-ஒரு

பொன்னான வாய்ப்பு உன் கண்ணில் படும்

தேடு...தேடு...

தேடிக்கொண்டே இரு

எல்லா இரவும் விடியும்

உன்னால் எதுவும் முடியும்

into little thoughtfulness..

there are times when few words from some people can bring many changes in you,especially when you are close to them.I've realised i now.it's been a long time since i spent time to think.think without haste-about many things,the people around me,their character,how influential words are,how different people interpret my actions,last but not least-about "ME".

it was unusual i didn't get sleep for quite a long time due to my haunting thoughts.am i misunderstanding others or are they? am i wrong or are they?in an unbiased mood,i realised few things.yes!it's time to change,not for others' sake but for my own good.as my friend says-"don't expect anything in life.expectations hurt.when u don't expect anything,every moment is a surprise and every surprise brings happiness"how true! who am i to expect things from others-mainly close ones?is everyone jobless enough to fulfill my expectations?is it a give and take policy?i don't know.sometimes it hurts,it pains.I'm able to understand their point of view clearly.still it hurts..it pains...to think i have been wrong!don't know how far people may perceive the changes in me.

i am happy being just me-but that's not enough.i just can't trespass others' space.it takes time.and time heals everything.if the subtle changes i am undergoing are going to make me calmer,think better and lessen my sleepless nights-i don't mind them!is this a result of a profound thought?yes,may be.have i become matured?i don't know.this whole thing may sound absurd to you.hurt,calm,depressed,happy,upset,emotional,composed,disturbed,silent,confused,clear-all at the same time...
am in a cluster of thoughts!